first trimester scan

Separate appointment at the ultrasound technician’s for the detailed scan and report.

Still tired, but about half less than previous weeks.

The scare a couple of weeks prior still haunted me but the spotting was gone so all I was looking forward to was a report with no anomalies.

The technician was busy ushering one patient out and another in, but still very professional. Efficient and great at pointing out the highlights without too much chitchatter or being too cold, she couldn’t find him at first. (The baby will be referred to as ‘he’, as ‘bébé‘ is a masculine word in French and I’ve somehow adopted the way of associating gender to all nouns. It also feels weird to refer to a baby as ‘it’!!) Continue reading

time to spill the beans!

Been MIA for a while, but with good reason. I was really just chilling the rest of the summer away trying to catch as much sun as I could, including the last rays of summer sunshine before the September rains, headed to Biarritz for surf lessons, finishing touches on the new pad, then vacay stop in Dubai to catch more sun and very unfortunately in Singapore for grandmother’s funeral.

I did not know the real feeling of grief before this. That heart-wrenching pain, jellied-legged total loss of physical control; I thought was an exaggerated portrayal in reel life, till it happens to you.

But the autumn winds of change bring times of change. Big changes.

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